jedusor: (i have a cat)
Everyone smoked at Penn Valley, but I thought that was a Midwestern thing, or a low-economic-status thing, or a really-stressed-people thing, and would change once I left. But 24% of Clark students smoke, according to the orientation presentation, and after a month here, I would have guessed an even higher percentage. Smoke is everywhere. I can't have my window open at any time of day because smoke comes in my room, even when students do abide by the twenty-foot rule, which they usually don't.

Did I just get lucky in my childhood? Am I going to have to suck it up and learn to live with cigarette smoke for the rest of my life? Is there anywhere smoking isn't a socially acceptable activity? It might be a serious criterion when I start applying for grad school.

Bummer.

Jan. 31st, 2007 05:51 pm
jedusor: (cry inside)
Amherst wanted a secondary school transcript, so I sent an e-mail to their admissions office explaining my situation. After a bit of ping-ponging back and forth, they told me I can't apply as a transfer student because, as they see it, I attended community college in lieu of high school. They recommended that I apply next year as a freshman.

The worst thing about this is that I agree with them. Applying as a first-year student is what I originally wanted to do. None of the colleges I asked would let me do that, though, because I have so much college credit, so I gave up.

So, basically, I got only two hours of sleep last night for nothing. And I'm beginning to feel the "what happens if they all reject me" dread, and I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get in anywhere, and it pretty much sucks.

And that's all the wallowing I'm letting myself do. I'm going to finish my last half hour at work, go home, eat something, do my psych homework, and go to sleep, and I'm not allowing myself to drift into a mood of hopelessness. I have better things to do with my time.

EDIT: Clarification- Amherst was not one of the colleges that told me I wouldn't be able to apply as a freshman. I asked maybe four colleges about it, and all of them said the same thing (more than 12 units of college credit and you have to apply as a transfer student), so I incorrectly assumed it was a general rule.
jedusor: (billy heart)
Mom & Co. are back home from their travels, and the utter emptiness our refrigerator and pantry have suffered of late has been repaired with Mom's spicy coconut curry and Bill's fabulous bagels. Huzzah!

Also, I wrote a ton in my "Shit Nobody But Me Will Ever See" journal, hashing out my thoughts and feelings about current/past/future relationships, the differences between how I related to past friends and how I relate to new ones, my own morals and how much to compromise them for the sake of others, and the control dynamics of a weird situation I'm in. I think writing about all that was helpful, and I'm very proud of my little homemade therapy session. I should do it more often.

There's going to be a No On 2 protest outside Stowers tomorrow from 1-2pm, if anyone wants to join my family (minus Bill, who has been given strict instructions not to engage with the protesters) in telling these ignorant shitheads what stem cell research is.

I'm feeling rather good right about now :)

Skyyyyy

Oct. 10th, 2006 11:01 pm
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Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear Sarah
Happy birthday to you

Yeah, she's 18. I've tried to contact her several times over the last few days, and got the answering machine every time. I don't know if they went off to Japan/Russia/Alaska again or if they're just screening calls, but... I kind of wish she'd make an effort to talk to me. Two years ago, we had big plans for today. Two months ago, we had smaller plans, but still plans. Now, nothing.

*sigh*

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